Did you know, in internet marketing land, that the two most opened subject lines in group emails contain “I’m sorry” and “thank you”?
This is one of the many meant-to-be useful and potentially manipulative facts I’ve learned after three years of exhaustive research – courses, webinars, seminars, coaching, books, etc. – on how to be successful as a writer online…aka how to be successful as a writer, period.
I’ve learned a lot of good information, and a lot of useless crap. And because I’ve recently moved to a new, glorious office space downtown Vancouver, my fresh environment has given me some valuable insight. It’s become clear to me that much of the energy I’ve spent learning, attending webinars, taking courses, and trying to figure out how to get my message to my people was energy I could have been spending on creating my art; on actually delivering my message to my people.
Learning how to be a writer has prevented me from just…writing.
And I’m really sorry for that.
My work – years of writing, articles, ideas, diagrams, concepts, and three or four re-writes of a book called The Diet Monster – have been sitting in my computer, driving me absolutely crazy because I know I create good stuff, and it’s doing absolutely nothing for nobody (double negative intended). I’ve been keeping the work that I’ve literally downloaded from the Universe to myself because I’ve been afraid, I’ve been unwell, and, if I’m really honest, I’ve been hiding.
And I’m sorry for that as well.
See, some things happen when you start out on a path of being a change-maker. You become intimidated by the label and the ego of it.
You start to drown in shoulds. You become inundated with doubt, reasons why your work is redundant, and logic surrounding how incredibly busy everyone is…which all boils down to one big conclusion: Nobody wants to read your shit. Which, in some cases is true…and in some cases is not.
My dear friend – person who subscribes to my blog, reader who may or may not know me in person – I want to extend to you a heartfelt apology for hiding my work from you.
I’ve been painfully inconsistent with posting. I’ve been licking my wounds from rejections and experiences that stung more than I ever knew possible. I’ve been immersed in trying to heal. And I’ve been keeping this really cool body of work from the people who need it.
I’m starting fresh. And I want to make you a promise: I am going to show up and say what I have to say, with my whole heart, on a very regular basis.
It may be a story, a useful how-to, or a course. Hell, I might even sing you a song (probably not). But I’m going to stop listening to all the other people, start listening more to myself, and start trusting that what I have to say deserves…actually needs to be said. If I don’t, you will never trust me in a way that will allow me to make the change I want to make in the world.
So, in closing, I hope you accept my apology. Thank you for reading my stuff, thank you for subscribing to my work, and thank you for reading all the way to the end.
To fresh starts.
P.S. Please don’t tell me that I don’t need to be sorry. I’ve thought a lot about this post, and I think there’s mucho healing and power in a sincere apology. Sorry isn’t a bad thing; it’s acknowledgement, humility, and a chance to start over and learn from our mistakes. So no need to make me feel better about it, because I’m feeling just fine. 🙂